I am going to let the title of this one speak for itself. It says it all really. I hope this episode helps you if you are having a hard time letting go of shame in any area of your life.

So many layers to unravel after you deconstruct mormonism. Sex, sexuality, and sexual Identity and orientation are all part of the process. This week I want to share some of the personal pieces of my post mormon story as it relates to self pleasure, free falling in Hollywood, and figuring out some things about my sexual stereotypes and how sometimes we have to stumble around in the dark to figure it all out. We have talked about how we, as exmormons, initially feel very infantile as we remove the rose colored glasses from our existence, here on Exmormonology. Giving yourself permission to explore and figure things our for yourself is a huge piece of your healing. It can be hard with the thought that contribute to guilt and shame. Let's bust through that together.

Choose The Right vs. Choose The Wrong ~ The psychological implications from the "innocent" mormon acronym CTR are pretty big and may be playing a bigger role in your post mormon healing than you think.

This week on Exmormonology I break it down for you so you can see what you are up against with your religious deconstruction.

As a person who struggled with making decisions for most of her life, once I was able to see this, combined with all the other deconstruction that happens when you start tugging at the ball of string of your doubts, things eventually come into focus and you can see how a simple teaching can have such a large affect on your life.

So much to detangle. But, once you pull back and can see things from a different perspective, you can set down the need to do this the RIGHT way.

There is no right way WILDFLOWER.

You got this.

~Amy

Let's talk about our feelings, shall we?

In this episode of Exmormonology I want to talk about what happens if you are in the habit of putting your emotions in The Emotional Time Capsule. The ETC is the collection of all the feelings you would rather not feel and so you tuck them away and hope that you never need to unearth/feel those emotions.

If it only worked that way, right?

Your overall generalized anxiety is most likely caused from all of the emotions you are not wanting to sit with and feel all the way through. Grab your ear buds and lean in wildflower, I have a feeling this episode is going to help you understand what is going on in your brain and in your heart.

If you missed the first part of our convo, go listen to Ep. 65 first! In part two of our discussion we continue with A'Lea's thoughts and feelings as she steps into navigating polyamory with her husband, mindfulness, Peter and getting "out of the boat", modesty standards and family, body positivity and how it has changed, racism and body image, confessing your sexual past with your future spouse (TBM style) and so much more! If you missed the first part of our convo, go listen!!!

This is a first for Exmormonology! A'Lea Harris and I sit down for a conversation around all things body. So many of us have a love hate relationship with our bodies and it often consumes so much of our brain space, even when we think we are not thinking about it. We spend a lifetime trying to love ourselves and love the body we are in. The struggle is real. This conversation is rich. We peel back so many layers and discuss the multifaceted influences that contribute the thoughts and feelings we have with our body. I hope you love this conversation. You can find A'Lea at all your favorite social media places. @badd_woolf Enjoy!

I am calling this Exmormonology episode "The Recovering Good Girl." So many layers to shed when deconstructing from a high demand religion, so many if fact that it can feel very overwhelming. Are you constantly worried about what others think of you? Do you worry about making everyone happy? Have you been referred to as the peace keeper? Do you feel like you should just keep your mouth shut as to not ruffle feathers? Yeah? I thought so. I see you. This week let's talk about how many of us have been shaped into good girls and what we can do about it. Your “good girlness” has deep roots etched in patriarchy and surprise….religion.

Oh boy!!! It was a big week in mormon / exmormon dom. Amiright?! I have things to say. But you knew that I would!

Jeffery R. Holland said words and we are going to talk about it. Yep, we are going THERE. I want to offer love, compassion and some coaching on Holland's speech given at BYU's welcome to the 2021/22 academic school year program.

Learning to manage your mind does not mean you do not get fired up or angry about things, as you will hear in my voice as we navigate this speech. Learning to manage your mind is about learning to process those feelings ( listen to Exmormonology Ep. 3 & 61 & 62) and then channel your emotions in the direction you want to go.

Let's dive into this very emotionally charged speech given at BYU on Monday August 23, 2021.

This week's Exmormonology episode is a follow up to last week episode on Anger. Anger is a secondary emotion, but I wanted to start with anger because it seems to be a very loud uncomfortable one. This week we are going to find the other emotion(s) and I am going to teach you how to and what to do with it once you find it. Life is a full spectrum of emotions and being able to sit with and process the more difficult ones well help you with all that comes with being human.

If you are experiencing a faith/truth/identity crisis in any form, but especially from religious trauma, you have felt anger.

This week in Exmormonology I break anger down for you and explain what is going on and why. A religious faith crisis is not just about your view of God, it is about each and every aspect of your life. When the foundation of your faith comes crashing down, its ripple effects are far and wide. We often think we should just be able to snap out of it. Other people in our lives think the same thing. I mean, come on, if you had a nickel for every time you heard…“you can leave the church but you can leave it alone” you would have a lot of nickels! ;)

But seriously, leaving your high demand, lifestyle, cultural religion is not easy. As a matter of fact it is hard as the hell they have painted for you, religiously speaking. It makes sense that you are mad about it. Then, you are told to not be so mad and that makes you more mad!!!

“THEY” do not understand what you are experiencing and in a weird way you don’t want them to have to experience what it ACTUALLY feels like, but then you do. I imagine you ping pong back and forth about that one.

It is complex to say the least.

Join us for another bonus episode of Irreverent Sessions. Jim and I clink glasses and then talk about...

How to pick wine.

Long Island Ice Tea.

How Molly Mormon Amy was.

Our Story.

Exploring life outside of the mormon lens (and rules).

Jim's life in Hollywood.

Jim asking me to marry him while in Italy and why I said no.

Sex and exploring your sexuality after mormonism.

New York City.

Life Coaching Jim.

Conflicting Commandments.

Jim is a writer.

Working for free.

And so much more!

The desire to try and show your mormon family how the church is not "true," after you go through your own awakening from mormonism is strong. We feel that if they thought the same way, we would get to feel (_____________). Let's talk about how you can't really do this and how you can feel the feeling you are wanting to feel anyway. You really can't convenience anyone of anything.

Part 2 of my interview with Jim. He certainly knows how to push me to places I didn’t know we were going. This interview, for me was very reflective of my life as a mormon and the endless layers of unraveling as I went through during and after my faith crisis. Thank you so much for listening to my podcast. I hope you are finding healing along your particular faith transitions path. I know this journey well and I know you are going to be okay. I would love to coach you through it all. Come sign up for my 2 month coaching program, email me amyloganlife@gmail.com or sign up for a free mini session with me. I know it will change your life. Please leave an iTunes review if you have found Exmormonology to be helpful along your journey. Thank you so much. Amy xo

Jim turns the mic around and ask me some questions that I have never been asked before in regards to my mormon faith crisis. What a person goes through as they are deconstructing their religious brain is very intense. The thoughts and feelings seem to come at you so fast, you often cannot make sense of it all. You feel overwhelmed, betrayed and lonely. I did too. Take a walk with me, down memory lane as I share with you stories I have never spoken about publicly as my brain deconstructed all of it and how I came back to myself. Part One.

It is easy to let panic set in when we see the damage and harm being done in the mormon church. We often feel like we need to get everyone out of the burning house, so to speak. I get it, I really do, but I want you to step back and see the importance of breaking the chain. YOU have done this and because you have done this, the ripple effect will go on for generations. Learning how to manage your mind around all aspects of leaving the church will pay huge dividends in your future, let's talk more about it in this week's Exmormonology.

One of the most difficult parts of your mormon faith deconstruction is explaining what you are experiencing to your still believing family and friends. We want so desperately to be understood. We want our loved ones to know how hard this time in our life is, yet we just keep banging our head against the wall in frustration at the lack of understanding. It almost feels like insult to injury that we have to do the work and manage our mental health in this department. But we do. It is up to you to do the work to make sure you are okay. It is like we are speaking a completely different language now and thus communication with our loved ones feels foreign. Join me for Exmoromonology Ep. 56, as I explain this all in detail.

This week I want to talk to you about how one measures being enough. Growing up in the mormon church there are a lot of requirements given to us over the course of our lives about how we need to be living. We have to "do" a lot in the church and then we are required to go to worthiness interviews to judge our enoughness. The religious conditioning is playing a hard game my friends, when it comes to your internal belief on feeling like you are enough. Let's dive in and discuss how this effects your belief about yourself in ways you most likely have never thought about. Exmormonology Ep. 55

It is time for another Irreverent Episode! Something was in the air the night we recorded this Irreverent Episode. At a certain point in the podcast we, well, fell into a complete an totally laughing fit that still tickles me listening to it again. We hope you will join us as we discuss...

Jim's Legal Pad of Ideas

Mormon Temples

Missed Opportunity Mormon Product Ideas

The Mormon Rocky Horror Picture Show Equivalent

Moroni at the Insurrection

Exmormons have points! GD.

And more.

You may just fire us after this episode! lol

If you are in the beginning stages of your faith crisis, this episode is for you. Let's have a heart to heart. What you are going through is huge. Don't let the noise drown out the importance of this stage of your journey. This is the messy part. Sit with me today, newbie wildflower.

In this week’s episode of Exmormonology let’s talk about what happens when one's profession does not align with one's religion? In this case, it can get you excommunicated. Let’s touch on Natasha Helfer's "church court of love"scheduled for April 18th.

Also, do you know you are your own authority? Do you believe that? I am working on a module for my coaching program that will help you see how your conditioning in "The Church" has contributed to you second guessing….EVERYTHING.